Monday, tomorrow.

I will find out if I Ovulated or not. I thought that I did, now I'm second guessing it. I will go in at 9am to have my blood drawn. They do a P4 test to see if I ovulated and how my hormones look now.

I'm not even sure what the levels should look like, so I will need to ask the nurse what it should be. I'm praying that I at least Ovulated, then we can tackle the getting pg part later if we have to. I'm sure that I won't get pg on my first cycle of Femara.

We will find out tomorrow.

Now I get to wait.

Not like I haven't been waiting before, but now I have a certain day. Monday will be my first ever P4 test to see if I ovulated. I have that gut feeling that I did, so I will just have to wait to see if the test confirms it, or if I'm just loony. :) I guess I will know if I should get my hopes up about being pg or not. If it is confirmed that I Oed, then I will only have about 1 week of waiting for a pg test.

I hope that I can stay distracted this weekend so that it passes quickly. My friend is moving down here today from MI, I'm so excited she will be living in my apartment complex and teaching in my building at school. She will be moving into her apartment all weekend.

DH and I want to go see "Bourne Ultimatum" this weekend. It opens tonight, and I loved the first two movies. I hope this one is just as good as the other two. I'm not sure how we are going to go see it tonight and not be rude to my friend. She will be driving in tonight and staying that at our place till she moves in on Saturday.

I think that I have an answer of what I'll be teaching in a few weeks. It sounds like I'll be teaching 4th and I don't have to change classrooms. I really should be at school, working in my classroom.

Have a great day!

Waiting...

Life/vent

I know that I should be happy, but I guess I'm pretty Blah right now. So many things on my mind and I don't know how to get anything done. I know that I'm going to have a lot of responsibility on me very soon.

DH started his new job he will be gone for two weeks, home for two, gone for two and so on. It will be weird getting used to the schedule, but I'm sure that we will be fine. He has already expressed concern about being away from me when we have a little one. I know that he is going to love this new job and I don't want anything to hold him back in that. Where he works is such a large place, and we know that he can change positions in the company if he wants to.

I have to be at school starting Aug 13th, and I wish I could be there right now and work on my class room. The problem is I don't know what grade or room I will be in. I will either be teaching 3rd, 4th, or 5th. I like the rooms that I would have for 3rd or 4th. The 4th room is the room I had last year. I honestly want 3rd or 4th, but I will have to wait and see. Many of the teachers are already there setting up their classrooms. I wish I could join them. I should have some answers on/by Friday. Although I could spend all day at school tomorrow if I wanted to, but not really since I don't know what room I will be in. The school provides a laptop for teachers, and I got mine today. It isn't anything to brag about. It was purchased over 4 years ago. I'm surprised that it is still running. LOL.

Then there is the all consuming IF. For the first time ever it looks like I have Oed. Then I take my temp and it doesn't follow my thought of an O. Also I never got a +OPK. I was going by my saliva monitor and my horrid cramps. I guess I will find out on Monday. Either it will be a good day and I will have a hope of being pregnant for the first time ever. Or it will be an awful day that I will have to wonder how in the world will I make my schedule work around DH's work schedule so that he is home for BDing. It isn't like I will be able to fly to wherever he is so we can BD. Not with being a teacher that is.

I guess I just feel emotionally drained. I'm normally so positive and upbeat. Today though, is just a different story. I don't even know how to express how I feel. I guess I didn't start my day off the greatest. I woke up in the middle of the night, thinking I was going to get sick and ended up sleeping on the couch so DH could get a good night sleep. Then about an hr later, he wandered out to see where I was cause he was worried about me. AWWW. he is so sweet.

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Ovulation

I think that my body really did it. I'm so surprised. It started out with mild cramps cd10 on, then on cd15 I had really bad cramps. I was actually worried that something was wrong. I had ferning for the first time yesterday on my saliva monitor(partials the few days before). Also my temp was very low yesterday and very high today.

Now I get to play the waiting game.

My very first 2ww. I'm in awe once again.

Lord, you are awesome, I don't know how many more blessings I can handle.

CRAMPS!

WOW, that is all I have to say. I take that back, OUCH!

What? This better be the big O, no not that one, get your mind out of the gutter. :)

Great Day!!!

I'm in a great mood and having a wonderful day. My day started out with a ferning pattern on my saliva monitor. I jumped up and down all excited. I was wondering if I was Oing because I had some cramps. I will be having b/w done next mon or tues to find out if I Oed or not.

I went to the resource center for our school district, and they have a ton of materials for all of the teachers to use. I can't believe how much money I can save by going there. Then I went to walmart and purchased crayola crayons for my students the 28 count were only 15 cents a box. There is a limit of 5 per customer, so I will be going back the next few days to get some more.

Then I decided that I wanted to make a really nice dinner for DH since today is his first day at work. We are going to have salad, lasagna, garlic breadsticks and choclate chip cookies. I'm so excited. I also picked up a few other things to make some of his other favorite dinners this week.

DH called me on one of his breaks from his orientation. His company provides him a cell phone, lap top, and business credit card. He will earn frequent flyer miles and hotel points (for us to use) when he is traveling(he will travel abot 50% of the time). Also his health insurance is through Texas, and they are mandated to offer IF coverage. I hope that we won't need it anymore, but if we do, we may have coverage through his insurance. He is so excited about the job and so am I. The more that he learns about his new job the happier he gets.

I will have one of my friends back in town on Wed. and a great friend is moving down here on friday. I can't wait to see her so we can go have fun.

No matter what the Lord has in store for me, I'm so happy. Yesterday at church, this verse was mentioned. Psalm 37:4 (New International Version)

Psalm 37:4 (New International Version)
4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I have heard this verse many times, but this time it really made me think. God has blessed us so much, and I have given him all of the glory. Could he really be sending a child into our lives? For some strange reason I feel like I'm pg, or I'm going to be pg in the very near future. I don't know how to explain it. If God give us a child, I really don't know how I can take it. I'm already so blessed, I can't imagine any more wonderful blessings.

I'm so in awe. Lord you are awesome.

Normal?

I believe that since today is cd14, a normal person should be ovulating. LOL I know that I'm not normal. :) He He. Yesterday, I wasn't too sure what to think with the AF type cramps. Today, I still don't know what to think. My temps dropped this am, and I have no idea if they truly did or not since today is only day 2 of temping this cycle.

I still have faith that the Lord will make my body do what it is designed to do. Lord, please make my body work!

I'm so excited DH starts his new job tomorrow. In a few months we will be stable with our money again. These past few months were very stressful. I know that stress isn't going to just disapear since I'm getting ready to start my first full year of teaching, but I know that God will help us through everything.

Please pray for DH's work schedule. He will be traveling 50% of the time. Pray that the Lord will have him home when we need to be TTC.

Thanks girls!