Here we go

Today is Dec 2nd and it is also cd2. I go in first thing in the morning for my u/s and bw. I had to explain it to my boss and she was very understanding. I'm going to be late for work and someone is covering my class until I can get there. I feel bad, but my boss said to do what I need to do.

As long as everything looks good tomorrow, this cycle will be the first oportunity for Dh and I to become pg. I know we will still only have a 25% chance of getting pg like everyone else. We could have some really good news on Christmas day, or we could be faced with a BFN. I'm thinking positive and that everything will work out great this cycle.

It is all in God's hands.

Ready?

That is the question that I've been asking myself. I had my HSG done two weeks ago this Monday. I'm ending my BCP on Tuesday (coming off of a rest cycle). I will be taking Femara, GonalF, Ovirdrel and doing TI.

Since I have PCOS, this will be my first ever chance of getting pg. I've never Oed in my life (that I know of). I've used just Clomid and just Femara and never even Oed.

This is all of a sudden feeling real. I'm shocked, excited, nervous and giddy. I don't really know what to feel. There will be so many appointments, shots and most of this will be done while DH is gone on his buisness trip. He will be getting back just in time (I pray) to do his part.

I've known for a long time that I'm ready to get pg, to be pg and to be a mom. All of a sudden I feel like "ready or not here we go"

:) Why do I have a felling that we are going to have multiples? Why O Why? ;)

HSG is over!

WOW, that was quite a bit of pain(but over quick). Even now ours after the fact, I'm still cramping. The good news is, tubes are clear.

If you have any questions, let me know.

DH's second SA results are in.

Last time around, everything was ok except for the motility. His motility was 17% and our office would like to see 80 or more. After 10 days of antibiotics, his results were 98%. So everything on his end is looking great.

As for me, I'm taking BCP for a rest cycle. We are tying to lower my testosterone level before we start the injectables.

Thanks for checking in!

I'm ready to get pregnant.

I look at the calendar and laugh. If it works this time around I will be due around September 3. My maternity leave would be the first few weeks of school. I've thought about it quite a bit, but nothing is going to stop us from trying. We are ready for a baby and we are ready for whatever God has planned for us.

We went to the RE. Our plan is as follows.
I'm upping my dose of Met to 1500mg, taking prenatals, and another drug to lower my testosterone level.
I will be rechecked for the testosterone level about 30 days later.
I will start birth control pills on Nov 5 (due to DH's travel schedule)
I will have a HSG on Nov. 12 to check out my uterus and tubes
I will call in when I start AF
I will use Femara and Gonal-F
I will use a trigger
I don't know if we will be using TI or IUI.

DH's second SA results will be in late next week I believe.
DR mentioned that we may need to freeze some of DH's swimmers so that we can do an IUI if we need to(if DH is out of town).

More info...

I guess I should have said that I do like my RE. I know I will be seeing him often and I really do like him. I'm glad that he does my u/s because he knows what he wants to look at and will explain it to me. I'm thankful that he will be doing my HSG because I feel comfortable with him(as comfortable with him as I can be).

DH's S/A came back and I wasn't certain about the exact numbers because the nurse gave them to me, but they didn't make sense. I do know that his motility number isn't where they want it to be. Right now DH is taking 10 days of the antibiotics and then will redo the SA. I'm praying that we will only have to deal with my uncooperative ovaries, and not have to worry about DH's sperm. I know that whatever we have to go through it will be worth it though.

I know that God has this all planned out. I'm working on being patient for his time. It is so easy for me to get anxious and to become impatient. I really need to work on this. I need to be content with where I am and leave it all up to HIM. This is going to be a work in progress, but I will work very hard for it.

I realized...

that there are many of you that read my blog. At first I was going to change the settings so that only people that I gave permission to would be able to read it. Then I discovered that there are so many that like to read, I wouldn't want anyone not able to read it.

So, I changed my mind. I will keep it open to the public for the world to see.

Friday I went in for an update to my blood work. DH will be going in on Monday for his s/a to be done. I believe that we will be going back in this week to get the results from both tests. I'm not sure when though.

I know that this cycle we will be using Femara and Gonal-F to make my embies grow. Also cd5-12 somewhere in there I will be having a HSG done to make sure my tubes are clear. I know many people have gotten pg shortly after they do the HSG. I'm just praying for the Lords time.

I'm reminded often of the fact that He will give me the disires of my heart. Before I thought about it and was thinking, well what does that mean? If I desire (want a new car) would he give it to me? and that didn't make sense to me. Then I thought about it some more and continued to pray about it. Then it hit me, he will give me the desires of my heart because I desire his will. Also the desires in my heart are from him. All of the glory and honor will go right back to HIM.

I can't do this on my own and by no means want to. His plan is bigger and better than I can even imagine. I need to keep praying for his will and for his plan. I know that he will make it clear for us to see.

Also praying for DH's job situation. He doesn't like the job that he is at and he is gone a lot with work(makes TTC hard). He has had one interview and we are praying about that right now.

More rambles to come later.