More updates from me

Rachel, this is for you. :) I'm trying to update more often. Today I had a partial ferning pattern on my saliva monitor. I pray that I wil O on this cycle. I keep having a strange feeling around my left ovary. It isn't quite pain, but it is somewhat uncomfortable.

Some of my major stress is leaving. DH got a great job that he will start on Monday. Our money will still be tight for a few months, but at least we will have income in August. (we didn't in June or July). We visited family in MI and now I'm ready to start working on my classroom.

I had a long conversation with God yesterday (driving home from MI to NC). I told him how thankful that I was for all of the many blessings that he has given us. I'm still amazed at all of the wonderful things God has given us. At this moment in time, I just want to ovulate. Since I have PCOS, my body has decided that it doesn't want to ovulate. I have already lost 23lbs, still need to drop about 15-20 more. God has helped me with my self image, my fertility attitude and how I'm looking at life. I feel like this new med that I'm on (Femara) is like a new chapter. I have a new attitued and desire for the Lord's will. I know that his plan for me is wonderful, and I can't wait to see it.

All I'm asking for right now, is for my body to start working. A healthy pregnancy would be great too, but I just want my body to start working.

~Thanks for reading!

Strange feeling

I have a weird feeling around where my left ovary is. I'm wondering what it could be. I felt it a little yesterday at cd9 but mostly today at cd10. Could it be a follie growing? I have no idea what an ovulation feels like, I can't imagine that it could be Oing yet.

What do you think?

Here we go...

Today is cd9, and I know it is too early. DH started our BDing marathon last night. :) Like DH said, this is our first time actually BDing. Ever since we have been TTC I've never Oed. We are thinking positive that I will O.

Big answer to our prayers, DH got a job, a wonderful job. He will start next Mon. Please pray that DH will be home when we need to be BDing since he will travel a lot with his job.

Femara!!

Yesterday was Femara dose 1, I'm excited/nervous about this med. So far, no s/e.

Waiting....

For AF. As a teen, I always thought that it was nice that I didn't get AF more than 3 times a year. I didn't have to worry about summer and swimming because I didn't usulay get AF.

Who knew that this would be such a hard thing to deal with as an adult. Now the missing AF is a curse that says that I can't be a mom without help.

I tell you what I'm going to beat this PCOS, I'm not going to let it control me. I know that God has me in his hand and that I will have children when it is his time. I don't feel that I should stop treatments, I know that this is what God wants for us to be doing right now.

I'm working on my diet, taking my Metformin and I will see what God's will has in store for us.

Oh yeah, if you haven't figured it out.... I'm still waiting for AF. It has been 107 days I'm on Provera to start my AF. When you aren't TTC, you don't want AF, when you are trying to get pg you don't want AF, you want BFP. But when you know that you aren't pg, and you want to get on to the next cycle, you just want AF to show her ugly head so that you can get on with everything.

Back from the Dr.

I went to my OB/GYN appointment today. I was very impressed at the staff and the practice in general. I'm excited that the dr was so encouraging. She kept telling me that it isn't a matter of if we get pregnant but when we get pregnant.

I will be taking Provera to induce cycle, and then for the first time ever I will take Femara to induce ovulation. Then I will have a P4 done on cd21 to see if I Oed or not. I'm so excited, now we just need to get the hubby a good job.

Also when they took my blood, I had the best nurse. I hardly felt the poke at all. I've never had such an easy time with blood before. Believe me, I've had a lot done in the past year.

Flood of Emotion

DH still hasn't found a job. As of Aug. 1st we can't pay any of our bills. We are trying to eat very little just to survive. I don't get my next pay check till Aug 27th and that should go for our Sept. bills. DH has applied to jobs in and out of his field. He has even applied for factory jobs. He hasn't even gotten an interview. (For those of you that don't know, we moved from MI to NC in April. I finished up the school year (teacher) and won't get paid till the end of Aug. DH has been applying for jobs since March. He is getting very frustrated and upset about the situation.)

I had applied to a few different jobs and ended up getting a job at Blockbuster not making very much. I interviewed on the 19th, accepted the job on the 22nd(she wasn't there to accept it sooner) and I still haven't even started the position. Since then I have applied for many other jobs to see what I can get. Not many people want to even consider me since I will have to be min. hours once school starts.

Please pray for us and our situation. I still haven't gotten this PCOS under control. I haven't had AF in almost 100 days.

I know that our God is faithful and he will provide our needs. I'm having a hard time trusting him right now.

Thank you girls for everything.